Kaloi

My beloved wife pet-fish

Last weekend after coming back from visiting friends, (yeah, we're still celebrating 'Aidil Fitri!) the first thing my beloved wife would do was to give her precious fish-pet Kaloi something to eat. As for me, SOHO (small office home office) where all my precious gadgets especially my desktop are placed is da place you gonna find me. I was just switching on my desktop when I heard my dear wife calling me, "Honeyyyyyy!" (don't laugh, she does called me that, *wink* *wink*)

She called me in kinda sad sobbing voice which I knew instinctively something bad must be happening. I knew she wanted my immediate presence to cool her down whereby a little hugs and kisses should definitely calmed her down. Without wasting anymore time, I stood up and came out running toward her along with the words, "I'm cominggggg, dearest!" (Nah! Not that sort of coming, you weirdo. Lol!)

Then I saw her crying. Just looking her like that made me want to cry too. Not a word was exchanged between us. I just came toward her and hold her tight around my arms. Only after she had calmed down do I asked her what's wrong? Still in my arm she didn't utter anything. Then she raised her hand, her finger pointed something toward the fish pond. Below is the image that I saw.


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According to my precious wife, she bought Kaloi and his partner (who had died about six month ago) at the local pet shop when he was still a baby. They were so cute and tiny, smaller than her wee little finger. My darling wife put both of them in a specially made aquarium just for the two of them.

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For ten loving years my sweet wife had taken good care of them until they had out-grown the cute little aquarium they had been living in since they were a baby. A year after our memorable marriage, my sugar-pie decided to build a pond so that Kaloi and his partner got more space to swim merrily about.


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I doubt Mrs. Mermaid could take care of anything or someone so lovingly like my dearest wife do? I do believe Kaloi would have died in just a couple of days should Mrs. Mermaid be given the chance to take care of him. In one of her many emails to me, she freely admitted that she couldn't care less of any pet! She was so heartless stomach (that was a direct translation from Bahasa Melayu).

From here onward, as My Little Mermaid wishes she will be called Mrs. Mermaid. I thought it was the right thing to call her that too. Furthermore, she has the age to be called Aunty and she was also the wife to someone special even though she held the title as a wife for only twenty days!

More about that later. Please subscribe to this blog's feeds via email or RSS if you don't want to miss the coming episodes of Mrs. Mermaid. You will find the links on this blog's right sidebar. Anytime there's a new post, it will be sent directly to your email inbox.

Stay tune, folk!

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Last Monday

Little Mermaid at Court

Last Monday (June 9th, 2008), my Little Mermaid was the plaintive in a court case. That was another occasion I would really like to attend after the Wedding. Last week was suppose to be my week where I got the chance to make myself available attending the wedding and made myself presence for her at court. I knew I could do nothing but at least I thought I could be some sort of moral support to my Little Mermaid, but alas, I could only planned...

It turned out last week wasn't bad after all. Beside taking along my Mother-in-law to KL, meeting a few of my relatives nearby, I got to do some shopping for more computer's parts at Low Yat. I've spent the whole Sunday browsing shop after shop at Low Yat and Sungei Wang Plaza. We were tired but it was worth it. I shall publish a few photos about last week on my next post for your viewing pleasure, my friends

On Monday I thought of going back to where I belong at dawn, but my mind kept on thinking about my Little Mermaid. How was she? Was she doing all right? You know, that kind of worries I still had for her. I couldn't stand still. On second thought, I told my beloved wife that we've to postpone going back to KK and I told her that I was going to court. My darling gazed was hard and said, "You still miss her, don't you?"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!

There's only one thing I regret doing, loving the girl who didn't love me, and forgetting the one who did.

I was rendered speechless and admitted lamely that I still missed her very much. After starting the car I decided not to go to court to see my Little Mermaid in action. Instead, I drove to Tasik Perdana. I needed to clear my head ... the cloud of confusion was over-whelming. Plonking myself down on a bench, I buried my face in my hands and let everything my Little Mermaid had said and done washed over me in a big, enlightening tide.

That was the main purpose this blog was created in the first place, as a remembrance of those happy times my Little Mermaid had once made me. I wanna remember her just like I knew her before on March 20th, 2008. Yeah, those were the best of times when she made me felt like a valuable asset to her.

Memories of her and me communicating via emails, SMSs and what not burned vivid in my mind. I had lost counts of the number of times she would called me up when she needed my ideas what cloths to wear. I was always there for her whenever she needed me. Yeah, those were the days.

I rocked back and forth on the bench and let the tears stream down my cheeks. After what seems like an eternity, and I finally stood up unsteadily. Aware that my eyes were bloodshot but not caring what others will think. I started walked back to my car and drove back to my beloved wife who had stood by me through thick and thin together.

Not long after that I started receiving her SMSs just like before as though nothing had happened between us. My warning antenna started to go up. I kept on thinking what was she up to now? Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! (that was the sound of suspense, just like in the movie) and I was not wrong to be wary...

Stay tune my friends.

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Wedding

May you live as long as you wish and love as long as you live.

This gonna be a short post. In a short while, the three of us (Mother-in-law, my beloved and me) are going south to Kuala Lumpur. My eldest brother-in-law was in a hospital after going through an operation on his bladder. Actually, we're just accompanying my Mother-in-law visiting all her daughters and sons living in Kuala Lumpur. At the same time I shall do a bit of shopping at Low Yat for more computer thingy. This gonna be a great weekend.

Today my Little Mermaid's best friend is getting married. I've received her invitation card about a month ago. That was the time when my Little Mermaid were still an item. I was really looking forward to attend the wedding and meeting my Little Mermaid. I've even jot down today's date everywhere, lest I shall forget it somehow.

But then, we mere mortals can only plan. After what had happened between us, I don't feel like attending the wedding after all. My Little Mermaid were to be the best-girl to her friend and I don't think it will be a good idea if I attend the wedding even though her friend insists that I attend. She said it will be her wedding and she got a point there.To keep your marriage brimming, with love in the wedding cup, whenever you're wrong, admit it; whenever you're right, shut up.

Marrying a man is like buying something you've been admiring for a long time in a shop window. You may love it when you get home, but it doesn't always go with everything else in the house.

My Greatest wish for the two of you is that through the years your love for each other will so deepen and grow, that years from now you will look back on this day, your wedding day, as the day you loved each other the least.

I don't want her to start screaming hysterically at me shouting at the top of her lung that she loves me in front of everybody. I can't let that happen if I can help it. I know she would do it because in anger she had choked her dear husband once before. And I afraid as a fragile old man, I would have dropped death if she only yelled at me when she saw me at her best friend's weeding.

I thought I shall just post her wedding's present but I've no idea what to buy for her. Silly me I sent a short email to my Little Mermaid asking her what would her friend like for her wedding gift? Just a short simple email but till now I receive no reply from Little Mermaid. I guess she afraid I shall manipulate her answers and then blog about it. Well, she's always right. I can't blame her for that, can I?

Well Little Mermaid's friend, love makes a lot of things possible. Still, getting married is probably one of the most important decisions a woman can ever make in her life. It certainly takes courage to finally decide your man is the right one for you and to share the rest of your life with him. Whether you're having a fairytale princess wedding or a simple garden wedding, I wish you the greatest happiness and a blessed married life ever! And may you look your most beautiful and happiest on your wedding day!

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Be Grateful

An email from a dear friend

Right after I published Thinking Things Over, I received several emails and SMSs. Some of them can be read easily but the rest are just spam. One of them even advise me not to be too hard with my Little Mermaid. Too hard? Nah! That was nothing compared to what she had said and done, but I was not surprise at all. At least she had shown her true colours, and I can ensured you it was very psychedelic indeed!

Below was what my dear friend sent me. I wanna share it with you all and enjoy it!


Wife is like TV, girlfriend is like Handphone.Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person,
how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

At home watch TV, go out bring Handphone.

No money, sell TV. Got money change Handphone.

Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with Handphone.

TV free for life but Handphone if you don't pay, the services will be terminated.

TV is big, bulky and most of the time old, but Handphone is cute, slim, curvy and very portable at any time.

Operational cost for TV is often acceptable but for Handphone is high and often demanding.

Most Important, TV got remote... Handphone don't have...



Last but not least....... .

TV do not have virus, but Handphone yes... have VIRUS... Once get it, terus KONG (meaning, it will be unusable)... hahahahaha... !

So, better choose TV ...


Thank you my friend for sending me the email. I really appreciate it. Little Mermaid was just an episode in my colourful life. Fyi, early on our relationship I had made it clear up front, I would never leave my beloved wife for another of those cute, slim, curvy and very portable Handphone! I've always said if given a choice, I would still choose my darling wife. And for that I'm very grateful. I never had to lie or bad-talked about my dear wife just to get near my Little Mermaid.

O yeah, how do you like the image above, ArahMan7 the Wolverine? I want to know how I would look like with a different hair cut, in a famous picture or in a magazine cover. In fact I can be a different person everyday. Why not give it a try. Come on, head over to HOLEinFACE now and I'm sure you gonna have great funs like I do.

I've also played around with my Little Mermaid's face, to see how she will look like in if she was Mother Theresa or Queen Elizabeth ll? The rest of her images in other famous figures was kept air-tight for my viewing pleasure.

That's all for now. See you when I see you.


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Thinking Things Over

So near and yet so far...

Here I was spending the night at chalet in Bagan Lalang (not Gedong Lallang, mind you). Arrived here late at night after spending the whole Saturday with a dear lady friend and her husband. I chose this chalet because it reminded me of the Dentist (my first wife). We used to spend some happy moments here. Seem like I was walking through memory lanes these weekend.

On Friday's night I had a very long conversations with my beloved wife. I told her that I needed to go somewhere, just to be alone by myself. One of the things that I love about her, she would never argue with me over trivial matters. If I said I'm going somewhere, she will pray for my safety. No question asked. So far she has never stopped me from doing anything I wanna do.

When I told her that I probably going south, the only question she could think was, "Are you going to meet your Little Mermaid?"

I just looked at her straight into her eyes and said, "No!"

I'm sure she didn't heard me when I said, "I don't want to be yelled at, ever again" because I was whispering those words to myself!"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

I have even talked about my Little Mermaid with my dear wife, as though she was already a part of the family. When my being was much needed, we couldn't be separated. We would communicated each other by emails or SMSs all day long. We would only stopped when it was time to go to sleep. Yeah, I admit. There were certain things that I kept to myself. Do you think I was going to tell my beloved wife about the sexy swimming trunk (sapenda as in Malay) Little Mermaid bought for me? Yeah, I admit. There are still things that I didn't tell my darling wife about my Little Mermaid, which I thought it was best that I kept it in a special place deep in my heart.

So early on Saturday's morning after my prayers, I started the journey south of Malaysia. I drove slowly, taking my times to think things over. All the while I was accompanied by Pink Floyd's The Wall album and Lynyrd Skynyrd first album, "Pronounced Leh-Nerd Skin-Nerd."

When I reached Semenyih, I took the back road on the way to Kuala Klawang. I needed to stop somewhere to find a certain yellow shop. You see, about a month ago my Little Mermaid went there and she forgot to pay something that she had eaten at the shop. She called me up and made me promised to pay it for her in case she would not be alive before she could pay for it.

She was adamant and serious about it when I told her not to be ridiculous and not to talk about her death! That was how closed we were, she would tell me everything. And she knew how to make me happy and feel wanted. That was why I gotta find that shop. I figure these could be my final gestures for her. I don't want her to die with a debt lingered on her body, if I could helped it.

When I reached Seremban town, I made the ritual of stopping at Parkson, A&W and Jaya Jusco where I had my lunch at KFC. It was during at one these places, I sent a short message to my Little Mermaid telling her that I've fulfilled her wishes. I knew she would never gonna answer me, but I still sent her the message.

I didn't stayed long in Seremban and I've no intention of going back to Longgeng. I drove using the old route to Kajang and onward to my lady friend's house. She was waiting for me with her husband. I really had a good times over there, especially especially when I had the opportunities to play with their three children. I became their well-loved Uncle and I kinda like that feeling.

When I told them that I was looking for some computer's parts, they took me shopping at Low Yat. We went there just the three of us, leaving their children with their maid. Low Yat is the shopping haven for computer's enthusiasts. It was about three time cheaper here compared with any computer's shops in Kuale Kangsor. After much browsing around, I stopped at Thunder Match on Level Four.

I bought LogiTech's Media Keyboard for the husband and a PC Camera for my lady friend. For my beloved wife, I got her a Canon Inkjet Photo Printer and for myself, a ProLink Broadband Router. After I got what I wanted, I had to get away fast. I couldn't trust myself staying there much longer. Everything here were cheap and I wanted to buy them all, lol!

After sending them home and a promise that I shall come back again with my Missus next time, I drove slowly to Bagan Lalang via Sungai Pelek. I felt really tired but I was having so much fun. It was great to be among old friends who could accept me as I was. The one who doesn't mind if I came to see them by bus, the one who doesn't give a damn when I told them that I've no money in my pocket! At least I was being honest rather than playing the role of a big-shot with an empty pocket!

I knew it was so near and yet so far. I could have pick up the phone and dialed her number but at these stage when I felt I was not wanted, it wouldn't be a very good idea. Furthermore, she hated surprises. Even back then when my being was still in demand, I had to make an appointment a week before-hand. She really hated it if I just drove all the way from Kuale Kangsor to meet her on a short notice. She once told me that she was in great demands with many obligations to others. My Little Mermaid wouldn't change her tight schedule to cater my childish needs! Anyway, I can't bear to be shouted at again.

So, at the chalet, I stayed locked-in until check-out time at twelve noon on Sunday. After lunch I drove slowly up north to the place where I belong. I gotta get out while I still have my sanity.

Talk with you again, my friends. Have a blasting great week...

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Love You Too

Thank you for reading our blog

I was looking through BlazingPink's statistic when I noticed a familiar IP (Internet Protocol) address. To make sure that I've not made a mistake somewhere, I cross-examined it with my other blog, My Journey To Recovery's stat.

Yes, it was confirmed. My Little Mermaid was reading and digested every little bit of informations she could get from my blogs. And I also noticed that she was down on her hands and knees going through my new blog too. But how could she had known about it?

Yeah, I've to admit that this blog was suppose to be our project together where we shall remained as the only authors and readers. I wanted it to be private. Beside having the opportunity to teach my Little Mermaid about blogging, I also wanted to publish my thought, my feeling, my plan, my future which surely included my Little Mermaid of course!If a person doesn't love you anymore, then there is no more reason for you to stay. The only way to stop hurting is to stop wanting and the only way to stop wanting is to start accepting that the person is probably not the same person you used to know. Then and only then can you move on to find the happiness that becomes truly with rewarding when shared with the person who loves us just the same or probably even more...

That was the time when my being, my manners, my behaviours, my thought, my plans, my speech, etc etc looked wonderful, amazing, marvelous. Even my fart smelt like her favourite perfume, Sunset Heat by Escada. But now everything about me, stinks! "Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose."

Yes, it took only a blink of an eye to change her mind. One minute we were having a good time together, making plans for the weekend and all that jazz, but on the next minute, everything changes. And she has set her mind to hate me. No matter what I do or say she can never forgive me let alone talking to me! It felt like she had closes all doors, leaving me abandon outside without hope! Looked like she's totally shut me out!

Oops, sorry! I took the wrong bus. Where were we? O yeah, as I've tried to explain, when I created this blog I've also included my Little Mermaid as the author which certainly included her email address. When our relationship turned sour, (that's when I told her that I've no money and I shall be taking the bus as my main transportation on the day of our date) I plainly forgot about it. I only realized my mistake right after publishing my first post which I then promptly deleted her email address from Blogger's setting.

I guess, Blogger must has sent my Little Mermaid an email telling her that http://blazingpink.blogspot.com/ has been updated with a new post. I've thought of blocking her IP address from assessing this blog, but then on second thought there's no harm done. Anyway, it's kinda nice to know my Little Mermaid still took the trouble to read my blogs.

Below is a statistic screenshot from one of the counters that I've installed on all three blogs of mine. As you can see, on My Journey To Recovery she was only interested with only two posts.



I wondered why she's interested with 5 Ways To Spot An Addict and Be Careful What You Ask For? Anything special about those two posts?

That's all for now my friends. I hope to be able to publish a new post before 5pm. Ta ta...

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Pink

A Lady Favourite Colour

Even since my Little Mermaid decided to cut off all sort of communications with me, I've decided to take up swimming at the local public swimming pool. I respect her decision, but I could never stop loving her. No matter what I've said, deep in my heart I wish she would call, sent SMS or email me again.

I really missed her wake-up call. Every morning I would seek my hand-phone, expecting there's a message for me. Yeah, I know but there's no harm in dreaming, isn't it? Maybe that's why I chose to love her in silence, for in silence I find no rejection.

I did talked it over with some friends about these recent problems I'm having. There was a passage in an emails from one of them that caught my eyes. It sums it all. She said,

"The past is for the dead, ArahMan7. You don't want to bring the dead back. You want to bury them and move on."

I wish it was that easy. Anyway, to occupied my times I started to exercise again. But I've stopped doing my usual exercises of stretching about a year after my marriage. Maybe I was getting lazy and by then I preferred looking at my precious PC rather than sweating my body.“Instead of thinking about what you're missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.”

I was quite the athletic type during my school days. That was about 30 years ago. I played all the games, but I love to run the marathon. Below was an old photograph for the school Rugby's Team taken when I was fifteen years old. I bet you can't recognize me on the photo?



If any of my school-mate read this post or anybody who recognizes anyone in the picture, please get back to me by leaving a comment or two on this blog. I would really like to meet you guys again.

I was at the pool again this afternoon. The other day, I noticed one sweet lady who wore a pink swim-suit. It kinda reminded me of my Little Mermaid, who wore a blazing pink swim-suit - thus the name of this blog. Today, there were many swimmers around. I guess it must be because of the school holiday.

And the ladies mostly wore a pink swim-suit. Gee, why can't they choose another colour was beyond me? Why pink? But I'm glad nobody had a blazing pink swim-suit on.

Ever wondered why I chose swimming? Yeah, you're right! Right on the button!

See you when I see you.

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The About Page

Introduction

After much deliberations, I've decided to present this blog My Little Mermaid to the public. This blog will be about me as a normal person going through the phase of falling head over heel in love.

This blog is like the continuation to My Journey To Recovery. Many things will be covered here, as such my dreams, hope and expectations especially for the future. Like I used to say, I cannot undo what I've done, but I can live a better life. And I would like to live the better life with my loves one

But before I proceed forward on my next and next posts there's one thing I want to make it clear to all my future readers. I've been blessed to stay clean and sober for nearly five years and a husband to the most amazing lady in the whole world. But as a normal human being, I did fell in love with another woman once upon a time!

Before you start sending me hate emails and posting angry comments, telling me how ungrateful S.O.B I am, please follow the posts from the beginning and keep an open mind. I'm not gonna tell you that what I did was right and that you should support me. No! That not it, but I shall tell you about that moment in time when I did fell in love with another wonderful lady. In fact I've learned so much about life from her.

I'm sure you can learn many lessons from what had happened to me, which is the main purpose I created this blog. Especially for the guys who want to know about love and women. This blog is good for the gals too coz you can learn how we guys think!
No matter how hard you try to smile and laugh it out, it still comes to that point where you find yourself alone in your room, helplessly cryin' and desperate for that person you've been wanting beside you so much...

I know many of you will not approved about my behaviour, but I never felt bad about it. Neither do I regretted for what had happened. In fact I'm glad to go through that phase. I felt young again and I enjoyed it very much. You know, that wonderful kind of feeling that you want to share with your partner, to protect her from any harms as if you've the power to make everything gonna be alright.

And because of her, I've become health conscious again. I've started swimming at the local public swimming pool here in Kuale Kangsor. She once told me that swimming is not only a good way to exercise your body, but it can be used as
a therapy to get rid of stress.

That's it for now. This About Page will be updated from time to time. I know you will get confuse at the beginning but as time goes by you will get a clear picture about My Little Mermaid. The way I want to remember her by, my Little Mermaid who used to make me very happy indeed...

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