Thinking Things Over

So near and yet so far...

Here I was spending the night at chalet in Bagan Lalang (not Gedong Lallang, mind you). Arrived here late at night after spending the whole Saturday with a dear lady friend and her husband. I chose this chalet because it reminded me of the Dentist (my first wife). We used to spend some happy moments here. Seem like I was walking through memory lanes these weekend.

On Friday's night I had a very long conversations with my beloved wife. I told her that I needed to go somewhere, just to be alone by myself. One of the things that I love about her, she would never argue with me over trivial matters. If I said I'm going somewhere, she will pray for my safety. No question asked. So far she has never stopped me from doing anything I wanna do.

When I told her that I probably going south, the only question she could think was, "Are you going to meet your Little Mermaid?"

I just looked at her straight into her eyes and said, "No!"

I'm sure she didn't heard me when I said, "I don't want to be yelled at, ever again" because I was whispering those words to myself!"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

I have even talked about my Little Mermaid with my dear wife, as though she was already a part of the family. When my being was much needed, we couldn't be separated. We would communicated each other by emails or SMSs all day long. We would only stopped when it was time to go to sleep. Yeah, I admit. There were certain things that I kept to myself. Do you think I was going to tell my beloved wife about the sexy swimming trunk (sapenda as in Malay) Little Mermaid bought for me? Yeah, I admit. There are still things that I didn't tell my darling wife about my Little Mermaid, which I thought it was best that I kept it in a special place deep in my heart.

So early on Saturday's morning after my prayers, I started the journey south of Malaysia. I drove slowly, taking my times to think things over. All the while I was accompanied by Pink Floyd's The Wall album and Lynyrd Skynyrd first album, "Pronounced Leh-Nerd Skin-Nerd."

When I reached Semenyih, I took the back road on the way to Kuala Klawang. I needed to stop somewhere to find a certain yellow shop. You see, about a month ago my Little Mermaid went there and she forgot to pay something that she had eaten at the shop. She called me up and made me promised to pay it for her in case she would not be alive before she could pay for it.

She was adamant and serious about it when I told her not to be ridiculous and not to talk about her death! That was how closed we were, she would tell me everything. And she knew how to make me happy and feel wanted. That was why I gotta find that shop. I figure these could be my final gestures for her. I don't want her to die with a debt lingered on her body, if I could helped it.

When I reached Seremban town, I made the ritual of stopping at Parkson, A&W and Jaya Jusco where I had my lunch at KFC. It was during at one these places, I sent a short message to my Little Mermaid telling her that I've fulfilled her wishes. I knew she would never gonna answer me, but I still sent her the message.

I didn't stayed long in Seremban and I've no intention of going back to Longgeng. I drove using the old route to Kajang and onward to my lady friend's house. She was waiting for me with her husband. I really had a good times over there, especially especially when I had the opportunities to play with their three children. I became their well-loved Uncle and I kinda like that feeling.

When I told them that I was looking for some computer's parts, they took me shopping at Low Yat. We went there just the three of us, leaving their children with their maid. Low Yat is the shopping haven for computer's enthusiasts. It was about three time cheaper here compared with any computer's shops in Kuale Kangsor. After much browsing around, I stopped at Thunder Match on Level Four.

I bought LogiTech's Media Keyboard for the husband and a PC Camera for my lady friend. For my beloved wife, I got her a Canon Inkjet Photo Printer and for myself, a ProLink Broadband Router. After I got what I wanted, I had to get away fast. I couldn't trust myself staying there much longer. Everything here were cheap and I wanted to buy them all, lol!

After sending them home and a promise that I shall come back again with my Missus next time, I drove slowly to Bagan Lalang via Sungai Pelek. I felt really tired but I was having so much fun. It was great to be among old friends who could accept me as I was. The one who doesn't mind if I came to see them by bus, the one who doesn't give a damn when I told them that I've no money in my pocket! At least I was being honest rather than playing the role of a big-shot with an empty pocket!

I knew it was so near and yet so far. I could have pick up the phone and dialed her number but at these stage when I felt I was not wanted, it wouldn't be a very good idea. Furthermore, she hated surprises. Even back then when my being was still in demand, I had to make an appointment a week before-hand. She really hated it if I just drove all the way from Kuale Kangsor to meet her on a short notice. She once told me that she was in great demands with many obligations to others. My Little Mermaid wouldn't change her tight schedule to cater my childish needs! Anyway, I can't bear to be shouted at again.

So, at the chalet, I stayed locked-in until check-out time at twelve noon on Sunday. After lunch I drove slowly up north to the place where I belong. I gotta get out while I still have my sanity.

Talk with you again, my friends. Have a blasting great week...

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